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@2 months ago with 182 notes
There’s a tap on my bedroom window.
I yelp, and look up. It’s Nina, who disappeared seven days ago.
She’s sitting perched at the edge of the window-mounted flower box, facing out into the night. You couldn’t get up there without a ladder, but I don’t see one.
I push the window open.
“Hey,” she says.
“Hi,” I say. “Are you okay?”
“Totally,” she says.
“Do you want food or, like, a blanket—”
“Liz,” she says, “it’s cool. This isn’t a distress thing, and I’m not coming back, I just thought I would come say ‘hi.’”
“Hi!” I say again, like clip-art of a happy person.
Then I start crying.
“No, don’t, I’m fine,” she says. “I’m so fine, I’m better than fine!”
“Okay,” I say. Then I stop crying. I make myself.
“I have seen such creepy shit in the last little while,” she says, “but nothing as creepy as the fact that you can just stop crying on a dime like that.”
“Can I put that on a college application? Like under special skills,” I say. “That’s got to be some kind of achievement, right? ‘One time I creeped out a witch.’”
“Sounds like you could get an essay out of that,” she says, “but if there’s one thing I’ve never worried about, it’s your ability to get an essay out of something.”
There are many, many things Nina always seemed not to be worried about. She projected an emotional wall of not-worried-about-it ten feet high, and behind the wall were the kind of worries that apparently can drive you to exchange your life in human society for one I cannot even begin to understand.
“Aren’t you cold out there?” I say, thinking that by “out there” I mean “sitting outside my window in the middle of the night in early November,” but realizing I actually mean “the world.”
“No,” she says, “but thanks for asking.”
There’s a golf course across the street from our school, and next to it there’s a walled-in bunch of above-ground pipes and meters that probably do something like regulate the golf course’s sprinkler system or the water level of its man-made lake. There’s this alley between one of the walls and some fenced-in power lines where kids from our school go to smoke. I went out there with her a few times between finishing our food and the lunch bell ringing.
At first it was cool, and I didn’t smoke, just got a buzz from the totally acceptable amount of risk involved in leaving school grounds during the day despite not being Seniors. The kids were mostly older and pretty nice, and they liked the same music as Nina. I stopped going with her once I realized it wasn’t just for the companionship of cool kids who agreed with her about what was bullshit, she had a chemical need to go out there and smoke. Once she started having her own cigarettes. I thought not going would be a good way to get her to stop, but it wasn’t. And not long after I stopped, this guy who didn’t go to our school started hanging out back there.
“People are gonna say, oh, she got seduced by that guy and wanted to become a monster, like Twilight or something, but I’m not even attracted to him. There’s nothing less sexy than a guy who’s actually a thousand spiders.”
“What do you mean?”
“I mean he’s literally a thousand spiders inside of a human skin.”
“Oh. Wow. Umm… Cool?”
"I’ve had enough!" she said -@MattBennett
She grabbed the garlic bread -@kidnamedSid
No one cared about her -@SparksForGrande
And she didn’t care about no one -@asdfgillies
A pointless void in earth, lay inside her heart -@LouisGoldsmith
She watered her flowers in disarray -@Chrissy_Shorter
Hoping they would grow into friends -@WhyWeShine
But it soon turned into more tears -@gracieisawesome
And the tears streamed down her face -@wisdommira
And the tears killed the flowers -@SibunAmerica
Or, then they ran off -@Victoria4Life8
To deep dark alleyway -@MahomieLover911
I am a strong independent black woman -@heres_2us
And I don’t need no man to be happy -@AnnabelleRR
She dried her tears and grabbed her suitcases -@iNicoleStyles
And took the train to nowhere -@victorialegacy
But nowhere was actually somewhere -@iadambutchart
She ended up in Missouri, singin the blues outside the record store -@soaringbutera
And that somewhere lead her nowhere -@xgilliesjustice
But nowhere was different than predicted -@BettsyyBoo
She got tired of getting nowhere -@0btrmonkey0
And all she wanted to forget suddenly appeared in her mind again -@AntonellaGS
But all she wanted to forget was what she was living now -@osnapitzkaley
But if nowhere was actually somewhere, and it was different than she predicted, she must’ve came back to where she was before -@BewareOfJadeW
So she went back out again into the unknown -@Crazy4LizandAri
She was just as lost, but not as cross, and had some understanding of her demons roar. -@maggie_stjohn
She had her eyes closed shut, but the light streamed through it -@CrayCray4Grande
Maybe lost was all she was ever meant to be -@silverandg0ld@7 months ago with 141 notes
“Uncle Al,” I said, “can it be true?” @MattBennett
“Nephew,” he said, “of course it’s true.” @AshlynApril123
He nodded with a laugh, “I thought you knew!” @asdfgilliez
"That the only person holding me back is you?" @osnapitzhayden
Go where? @sillylittleari
Follow me! @PickledGrande
Follow me to the end of the rainbow! @ButeraSunshine
To a magical land far away @LilStephanie21x
Where they can’t harm us any longer @pinkyturzo
How far? @GrandeFrantic
It’s near Valley Forge @fangirlgabby
"Nephew, follow me and you’ll see for yourself! " @PinkSugarpeeps
But how could I go!? He was holding me back! @MattBennett
Then I remembered what he said before @hollafoharries
"You can’t reach the sea if you don’t walk the shore" @cheerlollypop
Then I thought, “What does that mean?” @5HAvenue
And what did he mean by that? @sillylittleari
I was tired of all his wise words @MonkeyTimeRush
So I ventured off on my own @alissangonzalez
And I left him there alone @RachaelNewman4
In his world of dial-up internet @Pinkyturzo
And cozy sweater vests @Clare_Zayner
I didn’t look back @ClaraShelley
Never again @TweeterbugKayla
I’ll never @osnapitzema
No way… @BuyOnlyBabyI
But I should’ve @CupcakePowerWoo
And I could’ve @jauregillies
And I regret it @Bow_ariana@4 months ago with 87 notes